Friday, February 03, 2006

Resting in the Sun

There are moments in my life that I need to stop and rest. When I was in college I would lay in the sunshine in the middle of the floor (that is where ever it would happen to fall) like a complete fool. I did this because number one I hate the cold and I did not go to college in a warm place, and two because I read in a kids book once that “sunlight makes positive ions in your head.” I don’t know if that’s true (although I do know that sun makes vitamin d, and helps seasonal depression). I didn’t have a roommate thank goodness, can you imagine walking in and seeing someone curled up, even sleeping like a DOG in the sun! I even moved with the sunlight. It makes me chuckle just thinking about it. I did however feel a little bit better after napping in the sun.

By the way can anyone remember that book that I am talking about?

So i’m taking a small stretch in the Sun this week and maybe next week too. I just finished “Wicked.” It’s good, but dark. And next week I plan to read “Son of a Witch.” I have to hurry through it though, stupid ten day library books, grumble. . . too cheap to buy my own. . . grumble. . . even if I normally read a book in a couple days. . . grumble. I read for fun and cook too! Those are my two favorite at least. Don’t you hate those surveys where they ask your hobbies? Yes I read, cook, play on the computer, and sometimes sew. I feel like the biggest nerd ever! Maybe that is why I have bright red hair, next week plumb, I gotta feel cool somehow. After all I do work with teens for my part time job.

Sunniest part of my week is that I’ve been watching my son learn to walk, and haven’t been tormented by “I missed this” thoughts. I have been giggling all week because Little Bear is the goofiest, silliest, absolutely most wonderful Little Bear ever. He makes me happy, more happy than I have EVER been. I really love finally being able to be a mom.

I have been working my arss off at the gym, and I am looking hot! Prince Charming (my husband) is having a very hard time with our once a week agreement. Crap! I didn’t think he’d notice that I’ve lost a jean size and that my chicken legs and arms are filling out. Heck my boobs are even perkier! And I’ve breastfeed for over a year now. Don’t hate me because I’m beautiful (remember those old ads? Ha!).

I feel like me again. Not so bogged down by hurt and stress and pain. That was the old me - the one that would have black moods that would last for months, then a small upswing and then back down. Prince Charming changed that, or maybe I changed for him. No . . . I changed because I admired the way he handled life and I wanted to be more like him. He changed too, but that is his story and really not mine to tell.

So here I am curled up in the metaphorical sun in the middle of winter, ignoring my poor lonely laptop except to say hi. Don’t worry all, good ol' lappy gets plenty of attention from Charming, he has his own blog.

Thanks for all the comments lately! You are all so wonderful and your support is more than I’ve gotten in years, well that is except for Charming. I appreciate each and every one and maybe I’ll stop being a chicken sh*t and respond to some of them from now on.

Off to enjoy some more Sun!

4 comments:

KimKim said...

That cheered me up.

Jenn said...

Hey Girl,

Glad to read that you're feeling better. ; ) You brightened my day with your cheery post, and the great joy of watching your new wobbly walker. I loved watching my son try to stand in the middle of the room and then try to take a step or two. It is great to be a Mom! ; ) Enjoy your sunshine, the sun and your son! Happy thoughts being sent your way.
Hugs, Jenn

Barb said...

sounds like you've got a new lease on life! congrats on the positive things going on!

Cookie said...

All this adoption stuff is heavy - resting in the sun when you can is good.

And having a good marriage that works - ahhh - it took me long enough to find it, but, sheesh it can make a huge difference!

Thanks for sharing your moments in the sun with us!