Ups and downs

there are days I feel better. Today is not one of them. I keep touching my ever-flattening stomach today. I looked pregnant two weeks ago. Now, not so much. I feel empty. I feel alone. I want to be sick and throwing up with IV's keeping me from dehydration. I want to feel my baby moving inside of me. I am struggling with depression today. I am tired. I can't stop feeling tired no matter how much I sleep. I just want to feel normal again.