It never ends

I need this tonight - to know that God is there no matter what. To know that even if I am having a difficult time turning to God He is still there. I know this because of the strange peace I have carried with me the last two weeks. I know that He is in the middle of my pain, of my struggle, of my brokenness, of my anger, and of my grief.

I've been listening to a song that touches me right down to my soul as I sit here in actual physical pain waiting... waiting for what feels like the beginning of the end.

Read the lyrics as you listen to the song here: it's called Times - you have to forward it to the song at the bottom.

The following is from the Tenth Avenue North website:

Times
Mike Donehey

"Times is a song reminding us that the Bible is a story about failures. It's not a story about a bunch of moral heroes. Look at David and you look at Peter and you look at Abraham. These are failures that God has redeemed. So the song 'Times' is just a prayer because we're all struggling. Then God just speaks his answer and says, 'You know what, my love is going to carry you through. I began this good work in you and I will be faithful to carry it out in completion.'"

I know I need You
I need to love You
I'd love to see You but it's been so long

I long to feel You
I feel this need for You
I need to hear You
Is that so wrong?

Now You pull me near You
When we're close I fear You
Still I'm afraid to tell you all that I've done

Are You done forgiving?
Can You look past my pretending?
I'm so tired of defending what I've become
What have I become?

But I hear You say
My love is over
It's underneath
It's inside
It's in between

The times that you doubt me
And when you can't feel
The times that you question
Is this for real?

The times that you're broken
The times that you mend
The times you hate me
The times that you bend

My love is over
It's underneath
It's inside
It's in between

The times that you're healing
And when your heart breaks
The times that you feel like you've fallen from grace

The times that you're hurting
The times that you heal
The times you go hungry and are tempted to steal

In times of confusion
In chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow under the weight of your shame

I'm there through your heart-ache
I'm there in the storm
My love I will keep you by my power alone

I don't care where you've fallen or where you have been
I'll never forsake you
My love never ends
It never ends